★. 晏晏

2010-01-26T14:06:00.002+08:00

click for larger view. eh my bestie like popular only or what. create fb 2 days only got 105 friends already! what you think you daisai uh! HOHOHO okay so the pic above is just something that we ' cannot accept luh!' WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH http://zlna.livejournal.com/

2010-01-24T00:36:00.001+08:00

i love a boyfriend who dont think that his girlfriend is pretty.... sad life sad life

2010-01-20T21:52:00.000+08:00

http://nana.zhanglina.blog.163.com

2010-01-18T08:40:00.002+08:00

wah i veh angry now. that's this china girl. from the same place as mine who is also my friend's friend. she used to msg me and ask where can use internet and the routes in singapore all kinds of stuffs. but we have never met each other before. she added me on 163 blog. i can recognise her cus my friend show me her picture awhile before. so i said she is pro to recognise me and she replied that she dont know me, i recognise the wrong person. omf-inggod. where got such people in this world??? people help her so much before and now she get used to live here she knows the routes and everything means that she has the right to pretend like she never needed any help from others? fuck her seriously. and she added saying that 'huh? i dont know you uh! i've been in sg for two years alr...' HUH? am the one supposed to be HUH? two years in sg. please readers you know what i gonna say right. SERIOUSLY FUCK HER. FURIOUS. REALLY.

2010-01-18T08:38:00.000+08:00

2010-01-04T14:32:00.005+08:00

With all these uncertainties, we could only continue our relentless and expensive plow forward with faith that everything will turn out ok.
quoted from xiaxue, one of the sweet sentences she used to recount her relationship with Mike.
i really think that their love story is quite muchly like the r/s me and footballer. but definately they been through more than us more deeply in love than us and that represents that we are also going to make our way continuously despite the harsh times to endure.
p/s. note taken from quah yanling, taught me how to space the paragraphs.

2010-01-02T01:52:00.002+08:00

when can we so stop all these? i think im on the way to depression. i cant function my brain cells like how i could. even the word depression i went to check what is that in english called from chinese. i kept dwelling on the same thing everyday. i know i should'nt. not that myself want to be emo and upset. idk. im scared. so many things. headache headache. no one can help me. footballer had just returned to tsingtao. back home make him busy. tmr there's dinner at fine dinning with his mom and friend. the day after tmr there's a family dinner at the friend's place. the day after tmr's tmr is the grandma's Bday. and me nana is stuck in singapore living a miserable life which she herself cant even figure out the reason why. starting sch. uts. not prepared at all. work. tiring. sacrificing my PLAY TIME! fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!!!!

2009-12-19T00:32:00.002+08:00

im veh sick of this blog. idk how to change the skin. and i dont want to know. anyone wants to change for me just open your mouth and ask for my password ok. thanks! anw i have been working. dk why so lucky they ask me go back to work. good pay. despite tiredness. boring thing. but need experience one kay! so that i can spend some in seoul and bring back some to buy a pressie for dad. and my trip to sanya. in hainan. its gonna be fun. am looking forward to the five-star hotel service and the comfy bed. so excited. sian still have 8 more weeks. but nvm. mom's not feeling well these days. i really want her to go back. zyp mom says will mom to see prof doctor. lol. mom said dont need! cool hor? okay. god please bless my mom. i love her so much. zyp says that he's going to treat mom thousands time better than how i've been treating her. yuppps say so... mommy i love you deep deep many many. lynette's gg to cele her 18th at the last day of this year. looking forward as well. sisters can gather again(: at her condo. today am off. went to shop at town with shimin and julyana and we saw our ex schmate clara. lawl. this is a so called belated mini celebration for me. i love them so much. they bought me this coat which i chose myself from F21. cost them bomb. yeah. so i've got my winter coat! thanks! wait till i got my pay i will give you two a big treat! mentioning about this. thanks to my woman caifang lynette valerie and linda for the pressie. it rocks big time. its a dildo. oppps no la. = = bestie and i have yet to meet up for veh long cus am too busy. soon okay bro. kay. everything have been updated. bye and night.

2009-12-10T18:48:00.002+08:00

THANK YOU FOR THE BIRTHDAY SURPRISE HUIMIN JESLIN JY ZIWEI PEIQI AND ELAINE. YOU ENTERED MY LIFE, FROM THIS DAY ONWARDS. I PLAY A ROLE BE A RESPONSIBLE FRIEND. THANKS FOR THOSE WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY. MANY OF YOU. I KNOW THAT YOU HAVE ME IN YOUR HEART. BEST BIRTHDAY EVER. NEVER FORGET. ILOVEYOU FRIENDS. ALL I WANTED. TO MAKE MY LIFE AS A WHOLE

2009-12-06T18:00:00.001+08:00

雖然生日還沒有到但因為李保森先生要去台灣了所以呢我們就一起提前慶生喇小小臭美一下嘿嘿我們在等其他人的到來我的朋友都是遲到大王喇！這是黎柰&彩芳 5年的阿嘎料呢！兩個無聊的女人很恩愛她們總是在我笑的時候弄我哭在我哭的時候逗我笑無論我的故事多麼千篇一律多麼讓人無奈這是馬克思&馬休哈哈好喇 Marcus&Matthew :) 也是我的好兄弟丫雖然他們年紀比我小一點但是也很照顧我的我們去了Marina Square的 Yuki Yaki吃自助火鍋呢琳達小姐說我17歲生日在那吃的還不錯所以我們就舊地重遊喇！大家好想吃的都不多呢！那天的yuki yaki還算熱鬧黎柰好像一隻鳥吃的東西還不到彩芳的10分之1 哈哈她能吃也吃不胖丫！張彩芳！是一頭牛吃火鍋記得叫上她啊他一直在擔心黎柰是不是傳了簡訊給俊傑哈哈哈最後和好喇！吃完了主餐去炒冰麒麟還是很熱鬧跟前年的感覺一樣只不過換了幾個人而且心裡一直牽掛著一個人嘻嘻我的兩個超級好朋友他們兩個一樣個性超愛開玩笑滴所以他們很brother! HAHA! 這是我的阿嘎料賣給我生日蛋糕 Tiramisu! YEAH! 很好吃！不過我很偏心把比較的大的那一份給了張彩芳哈哈哈！我還是少吃點為妙不然的話呃晏晏要無奈了>< 這裡有林千惠蘇琳雁張彩芳方浩吉梁藝維吳文宗梁國平麥芬哈哈哈我想了好久他們每個人的中文名字之後還有幾個還沒出現我的寶貝丫樂琳達！她比較實際說的話總是比較婉轉告訴我實際怎樣怎樣再說哎呀其實真愛就是這樣的嘿嘿謝謝你的鼓勵北鼻琳達 Valerie! 跟我一樣為愛癡狂的女人爲了保護她的男人不顧一切三年多了呢很不容易！親愛的晏晏同學我們是哥們喇！我在他心裡是男人他在我眼裡是女人我的阿嘎料！ He is my Bestie:) Never change, for this entire life. 拜託伱不要再摧殘女性了喇方少爺我們的情誼不變 fat boy, matt. 肥肥圓圓我們之中每次的好人很善良很專情誰也不能欺負他！吃完火鍋切了蛋糕之後我們就去續攤喇！在大街上談天很舒服可是啊總是覺得呃少了什麽 ok! 我們去了Neverland. 因為kcx&Joel說他們是那裡的唱歌比較方便哈哈 aisey 張彩芳！今天你的特寫最多喇！我超愛伱最左邊那個是kcx的女朋友呢然後dylan彩芳琳達還有我開心呀！她叫燕燕！ kcx&Joel 我的的‘關東主’ 哈哈感謝贊助商丫 sisters! dylan愛扮女人就是我們的sister喇！我們都是Assumptionites! YEAH! 這是Birthday Boy! 李保森同學！還有女友 Cleomaine小姐！他才17歲呢哈哈歲月催人老丫馬克思跟彩芳拼了！哈哈哈阿嘎料在我生日還是很給面子的！我：拜託你長點志氣不要一直輸好嘛阿嘎料：是他們說的喝酒的樣子很帥 ohmyfuckinggod! 朋友們玩的不亦楽乎所以我才快楽有些些遺憾這是跟北鼻在一起的第一個生日我們就沒能一起度過我想如果我跟晏晏在一起過一定會更快樂吧不過也還好我有朋友的陪伴過得還算開心的好喇最後在臭美一個吧今年的生日真的很開心希望以後每一個生日我們都能聚在一起歡樂！希望北鼻來了以後會跟他們融為一體！

2009-12-02T22:19:00.002+08:00

ZHAO YANPING. AT THIS MOMENT. I REALLY DO WISH TO HAVE ANYTHING WITH YOU EVER AGAIN. FOR ALL THIS ONE YEAR, I BELIEVE EVERYONE COULD SEE HOW MUCH I HAVE DONE FOR YOU. HOW MUCH I HAVE CHANGED FOR YOU. I GAVE YOU MY ALL. BUT NOW IM TIRED ALREADY. I DONT WANT BE THE ONE GIVE IN ALL THE TIME. I GIVE UP. WAVING WHITE FLAG. I CANNOT HELP MYSELF WHEN I DONT CALL YOU. BUT NOW I CAN. YOU FORCE ME TO BECOME LIKE THIS. IDK WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME. RIGHT NOW I DONT WISH TO KNOW ANYMORE. YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU WANT! IM NOT STOP YOU. IM DONE CONTROLLING YOU. I GIVE YOU FREEDOM. YOU CAN FLY. FLY TO THE WORLD YOU LIKE. FLY TO THE WORLD YOU USED TO LIVE IN. I LOSE OKAY. I SURRENDER. YOU CAN GO. ANYWHERE YOU WANT OKAY. JUST STAY AWAY AND FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE! FUCK OFF!

2009-12-01T22:23:00.004+08:00

due to the complaints from people. nana decided to keep her blog updated despite the fact am so reluctant to do so. firstly, zhangxu me is now troubled of booking air tix to seoul then to qingdao. countless the price, is the timing and date, etc. if only me is a millionaire. okay i really want to go back for chinese new year. all the 8 yrs spring festival i've spent in singapore were so damn bored. secondly, she misses her footballer veh much. the other part of life like is missing for so long. my sacrifice. school sucks to the big damn core. i dont know why is wrong with me but i just can't pull myself out from the fact, i've changed class. 9th week im sleeping still. marcus leong's ex gf is back to sg and i din get to see him for so long. dkny which i've been yearning thinks that it had been flushed. . but now seems that i understand that besty finds it unworth to spend it for me. the qing yi is not there anymore, maybe. changed. dk la idk. due to this bestfriend of mine, footballer's not happy. all along the one who has been acting cool and charming and chauvinistic had finally barked that he doesnt like it. but so what? so what zyp? ok from that day he trusts me no more. not because i met brothers but i lied. but so? and then? alrighty, mentioning about brothers. one of my brothers, that is a poor soul, who had never troubled over r/s problems, is now troubling. pohshen got to know that ppl whom his friends not in love, doesnt mean that he cant do it. but finally when he wants to fight. the one giving him strength is pulling him back. ohh no, that is not a good idea girl. so what the past? so what? for the present for the future, he is changing sth just for you. his back, friends are us are supporting him. even me sucha laolan person is saying this. i dont see what is pulling you back. hmmm, maybe you dont love him that much? or do you want to give him a karma. ohh no, come on blair, chuck bass is waiting for you.

2009-11-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

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2009-11-19T12:49:00.001+08:00

http://zodiac-world.blogspot.com/2006/06/scorpio-men.html this is footballer. so true hello friends. click this link to read your horoscope. it is so true much more than all the horoscope analyzation you ever read.

2009-11-19T08:47:00.005+08:00

Orchard is always being rapped up with bright clothings before during and after the X'mas period so many people that day was a date with julyana had ayam penyet, our fav finally that was a date with lindarling i felt that was a gap but she said i still know her the best we watched 2012 together with darryl armyboy he really looked like a kid lor that was some days ago when i first sneaked out in the night marcus acting cute in the cam they are the best i have ever had

2009-11-14T17:26:00.000+08:00

boyfriend and i are going to thailand. i love him still.

2009-11-14T17:23:00.002+08:00

if you are someone sees little in friendship. then you are not my friend. that is a reason why i want to drift from you. i stated how i feel towards friends clearly. its either we are good, or i dont know you at all. no middle. no hello goodbye.

2009-11-09T19:36:00.000+08:00

besty and i are not in good terms recently. well, we din fight. however we both can feel the difference. but no one can tear us apart. if you are trying to, i convince you not to. because you will end up like another broken hearted soul in the world. besty always tell me girlfriend can change but besty can never find the same one. never he would for the rest of his life. same goes to me. unless when am married. i always hope the best for him. perhaps this time i should be mature to respect his decisions. but every of my friends knows am always not. well. we see how things goes. bestie please remember zyp treated you nice, no matter what. whatever he thought for me, he thought for my friends. hope the one you want does the same too.

2009-11-08T12:46:00.001+08:00

everyone in this world is making use of one another. i wanted to make sure that i would nvr be such. but reality tell me i must. you like to be friend with a person cus he/she is famous/popular/lovedbymanypeople. you like to be friend with a person cus he/she is pretty/handsome/makeyouhavefacewhenyouhangoutwiththem. if you are such, you are totally a loser.

2009-11-08T00:29:00.000+08:00

你走了太久一定很累他错了不该你来面对离开他就好就算了心情很干脆他其实没有那么绝对远一点你就看出真伪离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃转个弯你还能飞就别再为他流泪别再让他操控你的伤悲就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔也不要太狼狈他不值得你的泪把那遗憾留在大雨的街你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追以后为自己醉以后管他是谁每段感情都非常珍贵他的好你就放在心扉记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉你笑了照亮夜幕的黑什么梦都不比你的美多少年以后想起他还有些体会那些你已无所谓

2009-11-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

tmr is ut1 for marketing. today i din attend class. i went to library with keiden and study for marketing. couldnt actually concentrate): KEIDEN DIN EVEN INTEND TO STUDY LO. i still did some readings. im got veh demoralised of going to school. daily grades are NOT GOOD! cb. went to town to collect keiden's pay at stage. and had dinner. shopped at ZARA & cotton on. the clothes at cotton on are so ex. wtf? as in, it shud be cheap like how it used to be. but a tan top for 29.90 is like huh? okay yet many people were there choosing trying buying. LOL. i really realised that i treat my family not that well especially when i have footballer. he doesnt like me this way in fact. so from now on. i shud treat my mom and dad better. and am done loving footballer. maybe things would change. but at least not now. hope you will try harder baby. tmr is besty's driving practical test. i hope he can make it for the first time:) so that i have a chauffer. HAHAHAHAHA. besty is a good friend, to me, always! WISH HIM GOOD LUCK! i miss the time when footballer and besty played pool tgt at irc. i love him being with my friends. i love him loving them. not fake not act. i hope you will do this for me and do not expect me to change for you, never ever...

2009-10-24T18:07:00.000+08:00

8mths. 243days. apart. fights. distrust. arguments. no kiss. no hug. no sex. i forget your look you forget mine. miss is not enough to mean how much we miss each other. when a couple quarrels. a cuddle will solve everything. apart. what can you do. nothing. quarrel more and more. worse is getting worse. i thought you are the one giving me confident all this while. i din know you felt so terrible. you make me so lost. baby why cant we always remember the things we've been through. so tough. so deep. so true. we are unlike the other couples. they act. they drama. they pretend that they are pure. we dont hold our pride towards each other. we joke. we play. we laugh at the clowns on the road. we say our own friends are retards. baby. iloveu. ireallyneedyou. idontwantanyone. iwantyou.

2009-10-18T05:41:00.000+08:00

currently at some ulu lan shop with friends. its been so long since i felt so happy like this, time with them is always happy. i almost forget that i have a boyfriend. maybe that's what makes me happy. okay, sneaky nana went out in the mid night. finally am naughty for once since this 10 months that im attached. pls dont misinterpret that i love footballer no more, it is at least true that being single really make you feel relaxed. upon here you must be wonder have footballer and i broke up? and the answer is no, sorry to disappoint you but we really love each other. time that we separate makes me forget how do you even look like. baby i really miss you!

2009-10-12T10:54:00.000+08:00

look at baby's hair! what's wrong? hahha he look like monkey! i was in class teeheee! i finally realised that 200 over days is really long. finally me and baby have not seen each other for 4 months exactly. 4 mths. how long it was. i forget how i went through alone without you by my side. i look so strong in the surface. i hatet to get sympathy from anyone. but there are times for me to broke down. 我真的很需要他在我身旁我么有辦法頂天立地自己面對全部. whoever beside me i thank them very much but it is really different with my boyfriend. my bestie always concern. but that's not enough i believe you all understand what a boyfriend would do and you'd feel loved. im really very lost. im not gonna see him till next feb. pls imagine. god. if you know im praying to you everyday just hope that time would pass a little bit faster. like the joke bestie's exgirlfriend had told him. i wanna throw the clock out to the window. sigh. you all really dont know how i feel. i almost forgot how does footballer look like. i have the picture of him in my heard the last time i saw him. i kept repeating the same thing in my mind remind myself to rmb his face. i so much right now to touch his face. the full of mostache face. the face has its thrones cus his mostache is always not well cleaned. he always scold me when i did sth he asked me not to and always scolded me harder for not doing the things he asked me to. but he's always there to teach, though he lectures at times. i rmb that's this day, when footballer's mom and i were eating lunch in the kitchen and he was then done eating, so he went to the living room to watch tv. then he shouted my name and asked me to watch some part of the show, it was a hilarious one. but i was eating with aunty, i din know should i just go to the living room cus its a kinda of disrespect to his mom. so i went to the living room only when aunty asked me to. when i went to the living room, the hilarious part of the show had ended. footballer was furious and shouted at me vigorously. even his mom said that his temper CMI. he ignored me for so long no matter how i apologise and expalin myself. but after awhile, he asked me to bring the mineral water bottle to his room, i did it. then he imitated the show that i missed. it was a joker contestant singing clown-ly. he used the bottle as the mic. made me laugh like mad. then we were back to normal and laughed at each other. yes, you must be thinking sucha a small thing also will be mad at me. that's the weird boyfriend i love. footballer, No.24!

2009-10-10T11:44:00.000+08:00

finally, the first week of school has ended. i just feel so weird in the new class without noticing any symtoms. monday i was even down. i bet non of you felt the same as me. forget it. sch is just sch. make no contributions to my life besides to learn. i have rach tricia anna jes hm they all anw. moreover, alot more friend outside. monday morning met rach to sch tgt. after school went to have lunch with tricia. tues met tricia to sch tgt. after school met marcus for lunch. weds walk to sch myself. marcus said he wasnt feeling well in the afternoon when i actually wanted to eat waffle ice cream. no choice went to panjang da bao for that poor boy. bought otah his hse stairs and it taste suck! his sis went to fetch us to khatib. near my hse teeheee! to fetch the boyf. went to have dinner tgt. and they took me home! good! guess what! zhangxu me is totally not a pro liar. my lie would always poked by the victim or i poked myself. walauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! sry footballer. haha i know you have forgiven me. i know you cant afford to lose me! lurb chu! meeting cf and lynette ltr. for dinner at town. got to fill in the PR form and prepare for tuition for linda baby tmr! kay, life's so slow without zyp. 124 days. please!

2009-10-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

happy time! click for larger view. i miss you crazy i worked overnight at the bund. F1 event was so busy so exaggerating. they removed everything in our res for JOHNNIE WALKER. kim told me she worked for 18 hrs each day. siao. sat supposed to be dylan's birthday. too bad i got to work. promised bestie to meet him for breakfast the morning after i knock off but i was too tired. went home to sleep and met mal matt and pohshen at timah in the afternoon. tues stayed at home to tuition for jason as his fye is coming. ytd was baby's off day. so i stayed at home in the noon ti webcam with him. evening headed to bugis to meet caifang. shopped and salam. took bus to town to have our dinner. time with her was always fast. we could just talk cock all the way and gek each other by our funny stories. now i just came back from amk. had fish&co with bestie as his driving lesson was conducted at yck. caught phobia2 with him as well. both his treat. how sweet of him. see, told you no girlfriend is GOOD! haha, oppps, say till am like so bad. lol, am not the one hor! we bought naughty G from fairprice as rachel told me the drink will make ppl horny. so bestie and i shared this can of naughty G and we both gave those exaggerate horny illusions. hahaha. actually totally no feel lo! eh rach smlj you okay bo! okay he accompanied till 86 came and he took train back home.

2009-09-29T11:20:00.000+08:00

its always the same thing. there would always be a bad thing that happens after a good thing. its been so long.

2009-09-22T23:45:00.000+08:00

met my xia lan hair stylist sister lynette soh linyan :D i dote her alot and does the same to me too :D am happy to have her by my side :D i love her love linda love cf :D SENTOSA TMR WOOHOOOO!

2009-09-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

bestie and i went to town to catch the gamer. i swear the show was mother fucking bored till i dropped dead in the cinema. and guess what that fucking malaysian say? ''this was how i was feeling when we were watching the proposal.'' nabey. the proposal is at least watchable can. the gamer was like HUH?

2009-09-21T19:37:00.000+08:00

http://nana.zhanglina.blog.163.com/ chinese blog! do visit as well.

2009-09-16T15:47:00.000+08:00

which is zyp? guess correctly i give you $1 jes i know you are veh pro at it! the one with the ball blur front view... (: which is him again! blur front view i love you no. 24 back view lost. sexy ass! spectators. :D kick! 81 VS GY who is most yandao one inside? answer correctly i give you one dollar! superficially, i loved footballer at the first sight due to his sports man look and his soccer player body figure. i know am fu qian. i guess i would love him more if he's still in the club. oppps! of course no luh baby! hehehehe! i guess i know how much he misses soccer and the place he used to stay for 5 years. the prostitutes who slept with him as well as those part time girlfriends. i know he miss it. well, i love him missing them too, honestly. cause that's what a typical chauvinistic would do!

2009-09-16T01:25:00.000+08:00

somebody call 911... kept singing this on the way home just now as i went to meet bestie and mal matt at timah. i pass vodafone to mal as his sis needs it. irc played fire burning so i sang along. played pool, them i mean. marcus: bestie dont you think i play pool is damn handsome? me: i think my boyfriend is handsome-r.. mal&marcus: = = im sorry bestie, i really didnt know that you dislike zyp this much. since the first day you knew i had a boyfriend. you read my blog. i elaborated how whicked he was. i really didnt know how much you care about me and i insisted that you never did. today i then know you mind so much that your bestie has a lousy boyfriend. not lousy on the surface or shall say he's perfect on the surface but the way he treats me. i admit i said things to seek your attention and you knew i was, but you still cared. we are growing since 5 years back. you see me become a big girl. you dont wish me to cry over a guy, over anything. i know. i voiced my pov on your relationships told you how much i do not wish what to happen. you didnt comment any on me as i thought mine is perfect to you and you dont say a word was because you simple didnt care, it wasnt any of your business. but today i realised am wrong, very. i have a selfish mind, i want ppl to know how close me and my bestie is and hoping that am always the most impt to you despite you have a girlfriend anot. am sorry alright. i love you always my brother marcus leong. im sorry linda, i know i cared too much about my boyfriend. you was right, my blood is full of zyp. everything i do i think of him. before i go anywhere also needa ask him. i thought you understand me. cus nana is sucha love sick girl. i know that you know. actually you do. you just being worried about me because i just went in too deep, too far till you cannot take it. am sorry. you are my another baby in life. i need you. today, i called marcus and cried, nth regarding zyp but you. i care, i really do. i thought i will be happy enough as these days me and zyp didnt quarrel at all. but i didnt know i would have problems with so many of you because of my boyfriend. i will continue loving him but trying to pull myself up alright. i know you love me and care about me and thus being angry. i will always remember what you said just now. thanks baby! to mal: i didnt ever lied to you. i just did not mention anything about it cause i knew you wouldnt want to know it. i had never thought you would know it by an accident. well, i can open my heart and talk to you, about the truth. i dont mind. that's nothing wrong to love someone and give up some things. i admit, i did selfish. to all my friends who concerned about my relationship stuffs. i thank you deeply from my heart.

2009-09-06T10:44:00.000+08:00

click for larger view! okay listen up friends. footballer had found out that nana me is using xiaonei all this while and he sounded so disappointed like dying. at first he said that okay fine you play yours i play mine you dont come and view my profile and i dont view yours too. so i said fine cause this is the best solution since he thinks that i will make him lose face if i add him or he adds me. fine i dont mind. i can talk and view pictures and do all i want there just fuck off dont interfere what i do! but in the night, guess what! he finally yelled and cried and all those shit saying that am a liar. i cheated on him all this while. yea i admit its my fault. i shouldnt have revive back that account without telling you. but i asked you before, you didnt allow. so i had to do this. i think its perfectly fine without you in my friendlist cause i have my own friends and a big circle. fuck! he wants me to delete it. i said no impossible. he goes, fine break up. ending is, i have to delete it no matter what.

2009-09-04T23:50:00.000+08:00

i went to town today to book job for bestie. i met up with bestie at wheelock and this sua ku lang said wow what is this place its so amazing and worst he couldnt find the zebra crossing hence he jay walked on the big main road of orchard. just use the underpass you dickhead and the amazing place refers to the ION. who asked him keep going back to mls. have been going out everyday. sunday bugis with babyL monday met besite and the M clique. watch them play dota was boring just like what we used to do there would always be rounds of snookers after their game. went to eat tomyam soup at Ahlazah and pohwei say i eat so much no wonder am this fat. ok whatever am going to slim down within this month. watch out friends! please do recognise me when school reopen. okay tues i went to amk alone to get my call back card. weds was the trip to zoo with my poly friends. it was fun though it was tiring. dunno what was the black girl doing refuse to join us loser luh she! thurs i met julyana and shimin at town had our fav. ayam penyet. and hk cafe. oppps. today, watched the proposal the second time with the Ms. chanced upon kok huiying outside cine. nvr charge camera, hence no peaktures. bestie talked many with me again. i love to listen and share my personal happenings with him. his gf and ex gf stories, ahlamak can die. all that which he caused himself, he deserves it! be yourself marcus leong. well, i think zyp and i are closer than any couples in the though we are distanced.like seriously. idk why i have the feeling that my bestie, is losing himself. sigh. yau kui lo. okay, this has coming to an end of my post and jeslin tan asked me to do so. goodnigt friends. i miss those naughty things which me and my boyfriend did at his house. C'on. friend, half year ago i had the same thinking as you do. Nana is always a good girl. and nothing's ever gonna change that. i hope you get what am trying to say.

2009-09-01T11:49:00.000+08:00

yesterday, zyp and i didnt talk to each other because his prepaid card is cut off. he called me when i was at irc watching marcus they all play dota and i hung up his call as i wanted to call him back, i call is alot cheaper. who knows when i call him again his call was engaged. i called and called and called, no answer! and the last time i called, nin bo jiao de dian hua hao ma yi ting ji! wtf? angry lo. so, i missed the chance talking to him, i shld have just answered his call. tsk. so a sucky monday! met up with bestie in the bus 170, he just came back from mls as he sent his gf back the previous night. we went to visit aes and mrs loo was happy to see me and she hugged me! = = spent some time talking to her and missed the chance talking to ms pek and ms phay. i miss them, i miss secondary school, i miss staying back for night studies with qityan and kenny and of course my bestie. aes life was so real, like means like, dont means dont. sigh. sadly things need to change as we grow up. the previous day, met up with baby linda at her house and we cabbed to bugis, bought stuffs, and the most amazing thing is that we chanced upon bestie and his gf! the first i met her gf! she was like quite stunned when she saw me. hahaha. she said in real life am prettier then i just remembered that we did webcam once. okay, i watched the movie, the proposal with linda. the nicest show ever. my type and i love it! how i wish i have watched the show with baby! i miss him so much! i miss kenny and qityan very much!

2009-08-29T20:46:00.000+08:00

i a bit shy cus i long time nvr see my baby already halo jiu sang! baby's yandao with this CDG shirt! walau what you wearing sial construction worker! miss u miss u miss u! 166days!

2009-08-27T14:48:00.000+08:00

i have never thought that i would ever be one of those who have quarrelled with their girlfriends over a boy, especially a close one, and very. i saw people getting their mind twisted thinking of how to keep a man in their pocket and nevertheless lose many things in the process. i thought it so nonsensical to love someone who was possessed by your closed one(well, she never did). thinking that maybe those artistic people's mind functioned differently with ours. sadly, this tragic incident just happened in my life, nana's life. well, i define it as tragic. lose and gain isn't quite something ordinary but got people heartached for losing it one day. it has not yet regret myself but somehow missing the something i have lost. idk what is very wrong with the boy, never satisfied with my looks and figure. people around always say that a person never mind about your appearance if he/she really loves you. but seriously it doesn't means that he/she doesnt loves you if they do so. am not trying to convince my dear your friends about how true to me footballer is when am also actually pissed off with this damn superficial bastard. not allowing his girlfriend to play xiaonei isn't because he feels jealous or wants to control his gf who to socialise with, but because he is afraid those friends of him may take a joke out of his gf. he wants his face too much than even considering about my pride. in his friends' eyes, zyp's girlfriend supposed be some kind of super model who has perfect look and body figure. sadly am not. now even that he wants me to remove his photos from the sina album for what reason you guys should know, and this guy had literally ruined his image in my heart. am totally disppointed with he man whom i love so much despite those unforgivable crimes he had committed. a dying heart never need someone to paddle and console... so well, we people from w46k went for an outing at vivo city for a steamboat session and photoshots were timberly fun! i love my new friends though this isnt seems something nana would say but the first and last time:)

2009-08-22T14:06:00.000+08:00

2 yrs back, babyL's birthday! so happening and crowded! look all the hooligans, wanna be! opps. my bestie so handsome!

2009-08-22T13:10:00.000+08:00

i will be veh old if i dress like this but it is veh nice! redang! from alicia's facebook! i want a holiday for both footballer and i? excluding his and my mom? oppps, sorry mother. baby's last year soccer club photo! something want highlight, look at the centre boy at the first row. he is LUMBA, from canada, all the other chinese footballers cannot communicate with him! hahhahaahah! they use a typical form of communication: body & sign languages, gestures. okay am mad over communication module! ****! look at this, which is footballer? this will be the future NANA! as skinny as her. more thinner than LINDA BABY! footballer, you watch out! below are some peaktures taken on the 5th of august. my BABY linda's 19th birthday! as we grow up, we dont tend to have the wanting to celebrate our birthdays. perhaps we have our own financial plan and other things to do, like the relationship. i miss the times when everyone gathered together to celebrate each other's birthday. it was such a big big thing. but not now, neither in the future will be.

2009-08-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

i dont owe anything know. why cant you just treat me better! am so regretted for what i've done for you. you dont know how much i've bared, 've tolerated. you, zhao yanping, just dont ever farking deserve it, jerk man! cf and i met at lotone. had mac for lunch. talked as fun as ever. comparing about the similarities about both boyfs. went her hse. changed. showered. to kap to study and the farking kap dont have plugs and i wonder if all macs have withdrawn the plug service. i did her maths ws. went to ahlazah to have our dinner. i had tomyam soup and she had claypot rice both are nice and supper nice. chit chatted till i missed footabller's call. i miss the feeling, i live for myself. i miss bestie. he'd always make me laugh, like used to.

2009-08-15T12:20:00.000+08:00

school is getting bored as days goes by. 4 tables for each day supposed to be 5. all hide at home at study for ut3. actually that is the smart choice. i can use the time to study at home instead of going to school and squeeze my brain cells. lmao. being consistent doesnt mean that you are smart. haha. baby went to drink last night, we didnt have a chance to spend time on the phone with each other. why dont i just say he ownself wants to waste the chance. alright, i should shut up here cus he is a man, needs to relax and build good relationships with his colleagues. but i mis him, especially last week, idk why. i had a weird dream the night before and cant wait to share it with caifang! cus you will burst into laughters! the dream was so random till i was very sure that its a dream when i woke(cus usually ppl would ask themselves if they were dreaming). she msged me thrice to meet this week but i told her i gotta study for next week's exams. oppps, then i better spend all my time to study! had mac last evening with jy. two psycho women ate mac when both of them arent skinny in size! and let me tell a secret here. i browsed through jy's notebook, there was this page states the dieting plan... breakfast: lunch: dinner: and lastly, guess what? snacks: ???? i was like... huh what the F is wrong with her. where got ppl go on diet and plan what to eat for snacks?! !@#$%^^&* GOSH! matt&rach. mind your behaviours. treasure! dogs!

2009-08-10T14:15:00.000+08:00

how come so blur? puuuuu! baby finally got his off day! i curse whoever wants to criticise my boyfriend! cus he is my boyfriend! not yours! shut your comments to yourself! hehe. he's perfect in my eyes! 情人眼裡出西施, hor bestie? okay actually no one criticise him luh! i just want to give a warning! things seems changin since i lost my fone. internet connection the web the reception for calls are totally going against me! call so not clear! webcamie so lag! wtf! baby browsed through my sina album.. "北鼻你怎麼回事胖了好多好多！" walau eh hello mister zhao yanping you okay anot where got so exaggerate sial! followed by.. "這一次我真是要認真的告訴你你必須減肥!" i better do! ltr he dont want me already! who's going to be responsible of me for the rest of my life! omg!

2009-08-08T21:23:00.000+08:00

i is veh de power. now is 9.23 am going to tell you, my girlfriends and brothers something interesting which is when i just reached yck interchange from town i was praying that the queue's gonna be long so that i wouldnt have to wait for the bus as long happily the queue was LONG! and i just joined and waited for no. 70 after a while, i realised i forgot to top up my ezlink. by then the bus was about to be there alr. i ran to the train station and topped up my card. &ran back to the interchange. and guess what? A FUCKING 70 JUST WENT OFF! by then was 9.05! shit i cannot miss the fucking bus! cus i have to be home by 9.30 cus baby knock off at 9.30! and i decided in a second's time! i ran to the first stop where the bus's stopping! it was about 200 metres! wooohoooooo! & I CAUGHT THE BUS! YEA MAN CLAP FOR ME! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA! okay cus i know baby's gonna be mad if am not home by 9.30 imisshim(: had dinner with malcolm png hao ji met matt and dylan! dylan brother, long no see you ah! he got his arm full slaved! si pai kia! haha. so happy! mal darling lend me his phone! thanks man! this is the kind of friend i need!

2009-08-06T10:59:00.000+08:00

pictures of the above, never photoshop

please dont accuse me, like a dog!

okay i was acting chio at home before going for steamboat session @bugis

before i fucking lost my phone!

am nabey cb-ing pissed off!

i wished that person have stolen my camera instead of the phone!

cus i have every picture in my lappie but not every msg in my phone!

i cannot call baby! am mother fucking suay like a dog!

shook my head in dismay and knew i was never going to find it back at the fcukinng ulu crowded cheap skat place!

fuck!

btw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LINDA!

WHAT A DAY!

2009-08-04T10:01:00.000+08:00

when i first stepped into my school, i din know why i have a feeling that i will not graduate from there. now its the fact! zhaoyanping is damn going to bring me out.. hehehe.. baby i love you

2009-08-03T09:32:00.000+08:00

im gonna try this tonight! jes bought me celebrity's inchloss cream! am prepared to go sun tan with baby and friends am gonna slim down like a hot sexy babe and show off in front of footballer's friends opppps, am sorry! i sat lo!

i look so pale without make ups

nana is such a hardworking girl, went to work!

this is the heels i bought which i dont think i will ever wear it because....l.....

finally, i met up with lindarling at her hse. she just returned from taiwan.

went to work at the bund on saturday.

received a sad news.

JOE LAI IS LEAVING OFF TO HONGKONG!

WHAT THE FUCK!

he is such a good manager, a tall and handsome guy.

he worker for our boss for many years but he's now resigned.

xuejing is also leaving, lynette had left, denise no more working.

what the F is this?

holiday is coming, i gotta work and save my own money.

but what am i going to do when everyone has left?

work 's gonna be full of boredom!

went to town alone ytd. had ayam penyat. met jc and jz.

shopped alone. from 4 to 8, i spent my time in ion.

i love the top floor.

market palace and those aqibarang stuffs. i love furniture shops as well.

below are all those labels which i hope i own them all but sadly my dad is zys not lkc.

baby's working veh hard these days, for me.

i appreciate it loads though the pay isnt much.

he caught a flu headache sore throat and worst he broke his arm

it will be so mushy or fake if i say im feeling heartache now but idk how can i describe my feelings now if i dont say it.

& thanks ah jes for buying me the inchloss cream!

me lurb chu!

2009-07-31T14:15:00.000+08:00

我很需要他可能我很会说情话但会说要建在爱他的前提下我担心我害怕我不想一觉醒来听不到他的电话我们不能改变我也不想接受会改变的一天也坚信这一天不会来到我在用这颗忠贞不渝的心爱着你我不曾对谁说过这样的话这不是肉麻是牵挂... 每当他听到我要跟马克思一起吃饭都会很大方的说去吧吃的越胖越好这是很大方还是假大方？他明明知道没有什么但就是喜欢讽刺我其实他很小心眼却总是装作很大方我爱这个爱吃醋的男人我爱装大男人主义的他他时不时会大声喊我但我爱臭脾气的他我知道他在乎他管我从来没有过的在乎有时候会伤害我的在乎因为我总是弄你发火从来没有人这样折腾你但是你爱我我也会害怕如果真的惹怒了你你会不会总有一天要离开我但你总是会安抚最后变成你的错在那里北鼻你要照顾好自己我知道你为了什么在努力我看到你的用心我看到你从没有过的专情我相信你为我而改变我愿你知道每时每刻我都在爱你 081208

we are always the one, holding on to each other

2009-07-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

my naughty bestie marcus leong was trying to seek attention from me by sending a msg both ytd and today. i couldnt be bothered because am angry with him for you all know what reason! just now he called, when my internet was down, when footballer was outside at soho night, when i got sucha back stomach cramp, my bestie just called me. yes he just did, just so coincident! you see? he's always do such things to make me stay, make me dont feel like being angry at him anymore. we have telepathy(: oh well, our friendship is just so amazing, no one would ever understand and i dont wanna explain! text me: my mood is so bad till i being so paraoid thinking that footballer doesnt love me anymore, and you also dont want me alr! besty: but i just called you? me: im so poor, i scared when i tell you i dont have money you wont meet me alr. (actually i know he's not this kind but i just said that with purpose.) besty: am i that bad? when i got money i treat also. both no money come my hse la. i cook you maggie mee (: me: i also dk why this yr im so poor like a dog, i think i need to slim down and find a rich boyf like your lao san! besty: wait till you slim down then say ba. tmr we meet okay? me: okay i got culinary after school what you wanna eat i cook for you? besty: you sure you cook can eat de ma? me: can besty: okay we shall see tmr am gg to bed bestie, goodnight.. me: night night tor gor gor :) okay i think some of the part in this convo only marcus and i got it. what is tor gor? haha it's a secret! and you all dk what does he mean by, wait till you slim down then say ba.. hahhaha okay im not showing off how close we are, i just wanna pour the only happiness at the moment cus sadly i have to remind myself once more, zhao yanping is enjoying himself at 88 with the other footballers. am not controlling, am generous, am understanding, i let you be, pls die outside and not come home anymore...

2009-07-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

zh and i okay me is acting chio

naive friends compared to linda manda cf all.

they were the teachers helping me in amaths when i was in aes.

julyana theresa nana shimin adina

me was buay bah-ing before i left home ytd!

wish shimin a happy 17th in advance. leo baby.

the steamboat was awesome, cus its really

YUMMY!

fat shit! you are a fat shit! yet using sucha small lappy

look at this woman, jolly well acting hardcore

hongjy, eating durain pancake

ng huimin, why you always frown?

and my lappie(: okay friends this is very random, i candid them when we were doing our team proposal.

have being talking to mom last night.

discussing that if i can be independent.

i believe i can.

im already 18.

youths in the western already earning their own living.

yet im still being a spendthrift and a huge anount...

better off let mom go back untie with dad and let them waiting for this daughter to return with anticipatory...

2009-07-25T12:28:00.000+08:00

i've been searching but i just dont see the signs. dont you think you are funny telling me about his past... we are confident of what we are. needless you come and tell me who and who saw him at where and where. he stay at his house of course he appear at his house bus stop. stop pushing all the blame to me and turn the situation around. im so glad he called you and yelled, you are such a little dick compare to me. idk why are ppl trying to break us up. is this a sign telling me not to go on? im sorry, i chose this way, i need to continue walking despite there's needles on the ground and show to you, our love is stronger than all the nonsense you all have been giving me. i just wanna forget but i just keep rewinding. i wish you were sucha good boy, i cant deny i mind so much about your past. & i know, the problem lies on me... i can tell, you find me different with them, all your past lovers. and you treat me a thousand times betetr than them. i know you are changing. baby we just gotta go through this period of time, doesnt matter how long, i can wait, cause i know, happiness is there, waiting for us.

2009-07-24T18:11:00.000+08:00

it's always the same thing, we lose and gain..

2009-07-22T10:20:00.000+08:00

footballer and i had a late night quarrel last night, read carefully dears, late night QUARREL! not late night SEX! you all would be shock if i paste our qq conversation here. we was in a caller conversation. footballer kept typing, you all wouldn't know how irritating it was. the knock knock sound on the keyboard is damn loud and i was wearing ear piece moreover its shows no respect to me. = = ''who are you talking to? why keep typing?'' ''a person in france, last night always watch us play soccer'' !!! in france daisai ah? watch you all play soccer daisai ah? i totally wanted slam my screen down and let him be. but i din. i throw aside the mic and wait. he started talking, so i aked him ''you type finish alr?'' then he say i got attitude problem. he made his effort to explain to me who the girl is, what they were talking about. yea its all true, i believe him. im just not happy! i just dont like him to talk to another person when he's doing it to me! yes, im not a super girlfriend anymore, i started to become unreasonable... i still sounded angry and he started saying that if they have something, he would have kup-ed the caller and not telling me what's happening. im just angry cant you compromise yourself and just say sorry? okay. qurrel begins here. ''if there's something bu guang ming, i would kup-ed it and talk to her first, like what i did.'' ''oh, okay, i know, now i know alr, whenever you kup-ed the caller in the past, you were talking to... okok i know alr'' there he started yelling me, you know what? you know what? please dont act like you know. he was making me angry with a purpose of course i show him that he got his aim, i was angry. then he say i insulted his personality. and all the harsh bad vulgar insulting words was then come out from his mouth till i can hear his mom coming his room and ask him to behave... he end the caller convo. minutes later... he called me using caller. ''sorry, im sorry. i shouldn't have shouted at you'' hearing him saying this, i felt so weird, usually he din apologise after he shout. but why this time? then i heard him typing again, to me this time.. ''break up, we dont match'' i started tearing like one dog, like the meng jiang nv who cried the great wall falls. im not exagerating. he's still not enough, started explaining what went wrong and my words are so hurt to him. i know. i know my words are too harsh, too much for him to bare. after all his craps, i asked him again ''so now do you still want to break up?'' ''bu yao la... just now i was really very angry, very impulsive'' can you imagine my footballer is saying something like this? he never ever say break up before, not ever in this relationship, i bet i really pissed him off. i believe he love me and much... he dont know how i felt when i saw his words of breaking up, let's separate with each other first. heartaching. i can be very calm typing these down now but not last night. too sad.. i scolded him for saying break up so easily. he jolly well back to the past, to the playboy he used to be. im so scared, but not now, because i know, he said that cus he loves me too much... baby, im sorry....

2009-07-20T08:54:00.000+08:00

say the word 'break up' only when you mean it. i really did mean it. what's so compalcent about yourself. patch. we know are meant for each other. we need each other. we love each other. then why cant you do better? why cant i be more considerate? this is the problem. so is everything going to be better after yesterday? i hope so. im going to try veh hard, to change for you. i'll be the best, you have never had.

2009-07-16T14:47:00.000+08:00

footballer is damn going to scold me when he sees this >< aunt sara like so troubled ): 王姐，不要激動！ fish&co. @ amk for dinner 花癡>< mommy relax! @ guadian's shop talking to customer the dumpling is like, yummy friends this is nice, try it @ china square! mommy and i went to visit the doctore ar tpy. mom's womb got problem. its not quite a big deal but we just wanted to make its safe & i wanted to ask sth about my baby in my womb too(: HAHAHAHAHAHA footballer went to other place in china. we have not been talking nicely these days. i dont want to think so much which distracts my studies and progress in school. footballer always tell me we sacrifice in the present for the future to build a nest for us and our baby (: i should grow up. ! ! !

2009-07-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

zhangxu met her besty marcus just now. first time in life besty made his effort to woodlands to meet me. so you all must be satisfied with my besty as a boyfriend okay, his ex-es or flings or what so ever! me his besty me never derserve this kinda treatment before. hahaha. okay. had short mary gold for dinner. when we were walking at the basement, besty accidently hit my breast. ><> me: hello besty you just knocked at my breast, can you like apologise to me? marcus: like no? wth! hahahahha, i laughed like mad, was he not okay or what? or he has some problem? okay i think only the friendship between me and marcus can do this! me know me is not shy at all. hahahaha. really hilarious. ssssss our dearest famous footballer made his way to his father's place, to observe the working condition. i feel like we are even further apart since baby boarded his train though we cant see each other still when he was in the green island! sobs! i miss him. i counted the days the next time we will see each other. im very stress.

2009-07-12T00:08:00.001+08:00

dinner & desert session at j8 with the woman! 大象大象你的鼻子怎麼這麼長！ 這是北鼻最喜歡的玩偶！暴力熊！ new skill learnt from JESLIN TAN!

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我懂我超級白癡！

但是有他真的很好！

2009-07-11T00:18:00.001+08:00

i just received a call from marcus bestie. he went back to malaysia again. at such an hour, he just came out from the custom, how can people not worrying about him... we still mind so much from each other, despite the fact that both of us have gone through the things which we didnt want each other to go through. the hardest stage in our life, in this year, it just happened. we used to wonder so much about the consequences we need to face when it comes to us one day, we used to think how bad or irresponsible can that be.. but when it eventually happens, we found that its hard for us to face each other. i shouldnt blame him, he shouldnt scold me cus its just a certain stage we have to face sooner or later. whenever i feel upset, i would think of the happy things we shared, then i would be re-charged again. cus i know, no matter what, my besty is not far around me. some days ago, i still told pohshen and matt that i could have lead such a happier life in secondary school, if it was, without you.. but now i dont think this way anymore, cus i finally realised, being together as a whole, and the whole is only 2 person, it aint bad, its good. we know we are enough for each other, we dont need anybody else. i think everything would be better today if you are around, you are still in the same school as me.. when look around today, i finally realised i miss you so much. i told you i would be brave in poly and be happier without you. but only when the problems came, i know i need you.... over sucha long period, we dont meet up as often already. but what amazing is, we remember each other by heart. i know when i need help, he'd still be there, to support me, unconditionally. we still concerns so much about each other though we are sacarstic towards our relationship partners, being jealous, being over-protective, being complacent, being not used to..... i miss my boyfriend, but i miss also you, my bestie, for today, wantedly.

2009-07-08T14:55:00.000+08:00

me got sth to bring up here. its been days since fion's 18th. i forget about that totally. i remember last yr we celebrated together and the hunt to the sex shop we girls. okay i just wanna say a happy belated 18th birthday to Love Fiona Tan Yiling. a naive and quite dumb girl but a true enough friend!

2009-07-07T10:19:00.000+08:00

i know am contradicting myself. okay you all know actually i love him alot. but sometimes he really make me very angry. i really dunno what is going to happen in this half year's time. i cannot give him stress. i cannot keep telling him that i feel sad cus i cannot see him. he'd be very stress. i can just envy those couple around me, cus no matter fights of argument, they still get to see each other. i cannot. this is a obstable in our relationship. something we need to overcome.. baby i miss you.

2009-07-05T18:50:00.000+08:00

WHEN I LOSE TO 55KG I FUCKING GOING TO DITCH YOU LISTEN UP!

2009-07-04T12:34:00.000+08:00

im very fad up now. no matter how much strength i use, i wil never change you. you are sucha chauvinist, you say up i dont say down, you ask me to sit i dont stand. friends, please dont tell me i have a choice, i chose to be like that. i also dont want to have a boyfriend like this, but i dont can't lie that i love him. i dont know why guys dont feel the same way as us. i feel so loved when you question me where am i going, what time am i going home, dont go out with guys... yes i want to tie you up want you to stay at home. im so unreasonable, im trying to find faults whenever you go out. im so unhappy when you stay up so late and i got to wait for you in front of the comp like a fool. yea, my choice again. you never ask me to wait, i own self wanna make myself unhappy. i wanto think the negative way, i suspect you, i not confident, everything is me. you didn't do anything wrong. im the blame to everything. if your history is so perfect, i woudn't have sucha worrying mind. you say you wont play with girls, today you ask me, why cant you play with girls. the answer is just cannot, im just so unreasonable, im not so open, i cannot accept the fact you all play king's game together. i know everything can happen, cus i played before. yes, actually i know which kinda guy you are, you werent loyal, cus they dont worth your loyalty. but i worth it. and i believe you will do it. the reason why i can be so unreasonable, because im jealous, i have little girl minds. i can say how petty this girl is that girl is, but actually the most petty one is me. i admit. i curse the girls' whole family whoever meet you in soho. yea, im so scary, so fierce, so irritating. are you impatient? you stand enough of me? you dont want to continue the rest of your life with such a bitch who wants to control you in whatever you do? alright, leave me.... stay far away from me then! 狼心狗肺！

2009-06-28T21:06:00.000+08:00

i feel like writing a long post now. but actually there isnt anything in my mind. just remember a month ago, i was still complaining all sorts of stuffs regrading relationship here. after the trip to china, i realised there isnt anything for me to worry, so much. things that going to happen, i cant stop it from happening. things that not happening, it doesnt mean that it will never does... so i will let nature take its course. maybe you are wondering how come suddenly im so positive or see things through, let me tell you the biggest reason is, i know there's a position for me in his heart, a big important part. until everybody knows. minutes ago i've got so much to say cus footballer gave me so much... now zzz... i wanna die already. we quarrelled just now. i really didn't know, im so lousy. he's not proud of having me, not at all. what's avoiding for? idk. for what want to care about what his friend says. means he not confident in our relationship. im angry. i think it's time for me to re evaluate this relationship. its not the matter of distance. is about what you think about me. we made through so many obstacles, the long distance, you fly here i fly there. what was all that for? sometimes, you need to consider about my feelings too.. & today, i just realised, im so lousy, im not up to his standard. i think we dont match at all. we dont share the same perspective. i think love is about sacrificing for each other and ignores how the others look at you. sadly, you dont think so. i think we are not, suitable, at all..... pissed..

2009-06-26T15:29:00.001+08:00

http://photo.blog.sina.com.cn/zlna12101023

2009-06-24T15:26:00.000+08:00

OKAY EXCITING THING IS HERE AGAIN. SINGAPORE REPUBLIC POLYTHENIC YEAR ONE STUDENTS WILL BE HAVING A WEEK HOLIDAY DUE TO H1N1's RAPID SPREADINGS. IM NOW THINKING ABOUT WHAT AM I GOING TO DO IN THIS WEEK SINCE LINDA HAS RETURN TO TAIWAN WHICH I DESERVED THE SAD THING AS I SHOWED OFF TO HER ABOUT A MONTH's AGO THAT I WAS GOING TO SEE MY FOOTBALLER. BUT NOW......zzz MARCUS LEONG WENT TO KL TO SPEND TIME WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND. IM HERE DOING...WHAT? TSK

2009-06-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

me nana is feeling veh happy now cus when i was in town just now i saw fionalove. we are so fated. hehehehehe

2009-06-22T11:05:00.000+08:00

hello readers! there's an auntie sitting beside me, her name is Jeslin Tan, keep on talking about H1N1 in our school. very exaggerating. wanto go home. called her mom. now my class is all over about this case. ziwei is very neutral, he says that if we are fated to die, we will die. hahahahaha. ah jes really damn funny. hahahahaaha. i really want another holiday so that i can go and unite with my footballer! hahaha. i miss boyfriend. hahaha. the happenings in class reminds me of footballer's mom. that was the first case in qingdao, and she been to liqun, and footballer's mom went to buy lunch at liqun. then she scared, then call everyone she knows in liqun. wah. super exaggerating.

2009-06-18T18:32:00.000+08:00

i have been wondering about this for veh long but simply cant figure it out why! everyday i take train to sch and come back. i see people coming out from the train rushing to nyp. maybe they stay at woodlands or clementi or even the east side. but i took train from yiochukang to woodland to go to sch. can anybody tell me why must people choose this way. we waste time on travelling. why cant i just go to nyp? why cant they just go to rp? why? footballer, why are we like having a distance between each other on top of the physical distance but emotionally too. zyp i miss you so muc. ! ! why!~

2009-06-16T23:27:00.000+08:00

hello girlfreinds, i wont update the details about the china trip cus blogger is sucha slow uploader for photos! i will just upload them at http://blog.sina.com.cn/zlna12101023 if you cannot read chinese so sorry lo cus its a cina webbie. i wrote things for footballer to read also. heeee.

2009-06-15T13:42:00.000+08:00

其实我很烦恼

只是你看不到

如果我也不开心

怕你转身就逃

2009-06-14T13:32:00.000+08:00

3rd June day4. cabbed to baby's place early in the morning deeply knowing it will be an everyday routine for this 2 weeks. chit chatted in his back yard. he aske me to guess what tree is that i said it was water melon tree. he burst into laughters cus water melon grows underground. if it grows on a tree it'll eventually fall and break into pieces. ROFL! the sun is so striking but we werent hot. mom's cooking for lunch, my favourites again. i love her so much. dressed up. baby's going for an interview. three of us took a cab. baby sent me and 'mom' to taidong. she going to her shop and i was there to meet my childhood friends. i said good luck to baby when i alighted the cab and 'mom' laughed at me cus im uber cute and childish. hehe. i followed her up in the shopping centre. she asked me to take a look. showing how nice the clothes are. walau. haha. my girlfriends put on weight and they said i slimmed down. i showed them my diet pills made them wanna slap me. they are two bestfriends of mine. jiao and lyl

just look ar how naughty baby is.

是不是很登对？

four of us went to walk around the beach wood as lyl said she miss the beach after spending a year in shanghai-a beach less place. haha. boyfriend didnt appear to be embarrased but lyl did a little. he said wanna prove to me there nothing. lol. okay. it was such a long way. from this sea to another. we sat down and rest. jiao shared a jok, made footballer almost roll on the floor. haha.

i thank you. you dont angry.

let bygones bygones.

i love this place. baby's place back yard.

in the night. baby treated sis to eat at this fine dinning restaurant. uber generous boy.

they cleared out the misunderstandings happened in the past.

sis was too upset for me and over reacted. haha

baby still shared the stories when he was in sg with sis and showed off how many places he went and how many nice food he ate. sadly sis didnt enjoy that much as baby did cus i was still young when sis was here thus i couldnt bring her around as familiar as this march.

2009-06-14T11:33:00.000+08:00

1st June.

day2. (actually i couldnt fall asleep the day before cus i got to see baby the next day) cabbed to the cross road near baby's place as he asked me to. i couldnt describe how i felt. just happy. playing hide and seek with i saw him. went to his place. met his mom. she doesnt quite somehow like daoming feng. very nice to me. went to this high class restaurant had lunch with his mom and mom's friend. aunts all uber nice to me. i didnt know im so important in baby's mind. there's a position for till he told all his friends and even mom's friends that i'd be back. went home aftermath. sweet stuffs at home. 劈柴院. walk walk jalan jalan. i love baby with his red shirt. dinner at red house restaurant. beef steak. we had a couple set. baby's lousy at forks and knife. i cut my piece for him and ate his. it was the 1st of June. childrens' day in china. many kids running around the res. baby and i were kind of annoyed by them cus we both hate kids. we played with them still, after all, we need to have a child in future.

2nd June. day3.

holding my hand when he's asleep.

the necklace baby bought me. zhong shan park for a stroll. amusement equipments. baby yelled like a baby. ''i wanna go home, let me go'' i laughed at him but didnt appear to be so brave eventually. after this fun period, we quarrelled. forgot about the details but knowing its pain he sent me to grandma's place and bought her a watermelon. hahaha he went off to meet his guys updatet them about this naughty girlfriend.

2009-06-14T10:55:00.000+08:00

day1.

dad sis brother-in-law took me at the airport.

hand-in-hand restaurant.

dinner with maternal sides relatives welcomed me back.

2009-05-30T21:42:00.000+08:00

baby's waiting for me now. tml gonna be an awesome day. im going to ignore all the unhappiness in my mind. includes the unacceptance of baby in dad's heart. true love will eventually overcome all the obstacles. i just wanna enjoy my 2 weeks without any regret when i return to sg. this time isnt anything for family gathering or meeting friends everyday going to soho etc. though. im there for him, footballer, ZHAOYANPING. it seems selfish somehow i agree. ilovehim i must say. going to meet baby's mom. scary. she's like dao ming feng in baby's words. omg. baby asked me to removed my nail polish and emphasized plenty of times must use some sorta covered clothings, dont laugh so loud like how i usually do and dont gossip in front of her. okay. i'll try my best... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA

2009-05-29T21:29:00.000+08:00

18th birthday with family. lousy cam whored cus its handphone

an outing with mom afer went to the MOE to sign that Tuition Grant.

i became uberly sad after a talk with mom at the superdog.

superdog is my boyfriend's favourite when he was here.

im very sad bout what mom told me.

2009-05-26T20:58:00.000+08:00

now me nana zhangxu is a bit nervous dont know what to do or rather lost her direction. she should be super happy at this point of time but sadly no. so how? dim sieun ah? IM REALLY WORRYING NOW LO. im afraid that i cant get along with his friends well as they are all so much older than me. well not so old. but ahya, i just scared i will behave very immaturely in front of them and make footballer lose face plus he's sucha chauvinistic guy, worst ever O.O! okay i know, i shouldn't think this way cause it just shows how much childishness i possess in my bones. chill man zx, i think you need a chill pill, omg i miss lynette and cf so much. hahahahaha. morever, the worst thing ever, which is, i have not met my boyfriend's expectation of 55kg but im not still mingling around 59 to 60. dim sieun ley? shit HOW? HOW? HOW?....

2009-05-23T12:53:00.000+08:00

WITH HER, ME DONT NEED FOOTBALLER.

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE

as if lo...

2009-05-19T13:30:00.000+08:00

有时候你很调皮总是让我着急一颗心总是为你跳不停只要一闭上眼睛总有千百万个你你的影子装满我的脑海里

2009-05-18T17:55:00.000+08:00

it's been so long since I last did shopping with BabyL. we seemed went back to our life in the year 2007. going town only the two of us. that time we were still very blur with life and the topic was only about this particular guy appeared in each other's life. now we both have grew up and met things which were very unexpected to happen. that's life. Baby said i've slim down. so surprised cus its wanst long since we last met, not as long as a year but not to short cus we used to meet everyday. the feeling will always back when we are together. not drifting, at all. our boyfriends are sharing somehow the same characters. nice. okay we've grown.

2009-05-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

MARCUS says: bestie im here im here bu yao wei nan ren er huo wei ni zhi zi er huo ask yourself wat you wan donn let him tell you wat to do tell him wat you want to you are zx if he loves you then don ask u to chg if you chg then u are not yourself anymore wei nan ren er huo de nu ren shi zui sha de im a man i understand how mans fell feel we are bastard i can say i love kailin how much how muhc but when i meet nicole all that are bulls hit to me bull shit promises are meant to be broken really i swae swear be yourself be who you are my bestie that always happy so cheer ful i can say bestie concerns me the most in this world besides my parents. iloveyoubestie. i cannot imagine if the world is without you. i wanna say a thank you to rachel as well. she always give me idea about this relationship. thanks rach. i met lindarling, we shared a lot. women are like this. sacrificing without the notice in our men's eyes. we are the failure. loser.

2009-05-16T10:22:00.000+08:00

i dont know how long can i still hold on. i've yelled and cried enough. i thought you've changed for me. too stupid im wrong. you said you wont be going to soho anymore, you promised me that was your last time going out to play and stay up so late at night. that wasn't. second third times had alr happened. im very disappointed with you, boyfriend. ppl around questioned me shouldn't there be trust in the relationship? yea, trust. i trusted my faith in you will make you change. it's been so long since we had a happy online chat. i recall the past, we always make sure everyday we have to squeeze out some even just a little time to talk to each other. but these days changed. my tears are rolling down on the keyboard whenever i sign in my qq acc. i miss you so much, you dont sense it at all. what you are doing just shows im not impt to you at all. last night was really terrible. crying during work is so terrible. colleagues came to console me tapped my shoulder and asked me not to cry. i wiped the tears away but it kept rolling down. i couldnt smile to the customers. i was really down. im sorry. i really hate this feeling... 北鼻为什么会变成这样我以为你真的为我改变原来我错了你做的一切只是在证明我对你从来都不重要一点都不记得曾经的每一天我们都会腾出一些时间来通话这几天怎么了昨天晚上你真的太错了我甚至不能用失望来形容你太不在乎我的感受太不把我放在心里是我哭是我自己想不开我自作自受？我怎么都想不到第六感会那么的灵我还在想如果我想的是真的我真的会崩溃事实就是这样你怎么忘了你说过的话你这么做是不是要气我走我真的不明白真的很伤心我可以很坚强可以在你需要支持与安慰的时候给你希望给你这颗爱你的心在你面前我总是那么乐观因为我知道如果我跟你一样没有憧憬我们不会有将来但是不管在逗你笑是失败还是成功的过程中我的心里也藏着几分难受我想为你付出我想我们幸福我想我想的有时候是不是做的很错但你知不知道一切都是因为我爱你我太爱你...

2009-05-14T09:24:00.000+08:00

31st May. Guangzhou. 4.30pm. Baby. Money. ans a Kiss.

hate chauvinistic guys

2009-05-11T13:04:00.000+08:00

mood is gay now, very only is that idk what is linda and amanda doing like disappearing as we have our own things to do or cus i stay too far from them but what happened just now make me being happy again after all this while yay. so mom came to school to pay the school fees for me. on top of that, i brave up the courage '' mom im going back again at the end of this month'' sharks, i told her you know can you believe it. i have been pondering what are the ways to open up my mouth to tell her. i have already came up with the worst solution which is, '' you let me anot, i've already bought the tickets'' can you imagine im so naughty, so inconsiderate. but yea doing it for once for LOVE is unstandable okay! & i actually save money myself just to buy the bloody air tix! tsk. okay happy came. mom said this '' oh you going back ah, when ah? okay lo when i free i go but air tix for you'' ............ my heart beat dropped from 180 to 100 like stocks playing on dad's laptop i still cant believe mom answered me with literally no objection. and she added '' okay for love, maybe i can understand you.'' but i have to explain to my dad everything from the start when i go back. okay nvm, called footballer, he sounded normal. days ago dunno who said'' you better come back i tell you, dont waste my effort'' now i confirm going back already he give this kinda crap. mcp like shit. okay me zhang li na nana zx is super damn happy now wooohoooo!

2009-05-09T20:25:00.000+08:00

Happy 5th Month baby and I <3

2009-05-06T10:24:00.000+08:00

下雨天我怎麽办

北鼻离开新加坡的第54天

日子一天天真的很难熬

走过的每个角落仿佛都有你的影子

我一直用力的去想怕自己忘记

你在身边的时候

我从来没想到你离开后会可怕

不过假期很快就要到了

我很快可以看到北鼻了

2009-05-04T11:28:00.000+08:00

science=bored to core last week blood. now magnet. 'who told you those are magnet? what is magnet going to do with this whole thing?' the faci questions us like this. o dim ji ah? tskkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk 我很想 footballer 我该怎麽办？ i thought that school will keep me busy and forget bout everything. but what is this? totally worse than staying at home. idk. im lost. imissu. should i be the one again? no. i hate it. zyp, pls wake up.

2009-05-02T21:09:00.000+08:00

this is yetun's art work!

he said it's Nana,

but sadly nana is so much fatter than this

peiqi's birthday! celebrated in class(:

Happy 20th birthday to hafiz.

luku face!

the earth is still revolving without anyone's existance!

imu.

2009-04-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

i need to tell everybody. i really need to slim down. im a loser if i dont lose 10kg in 2 month's time. i need to rmb what i promised baby footballer. he gain weight i lose weight. really really. weight is stressing me up. i need to lose weight. okay bye go and do exercise now!

2009-04-27T11:30:00.000+08:00

北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你

2009-04-26T16:49:00.000+08:00

went to read xiaxue's blog just now. this was the first time i've been browsing it slowly and read those wordy wordy posts. reason being there's just so many people are saying that I look like her so much. my classmates, the church mates and the colleagues at work place. she's a nice girl, in my point of view. after reading her blog, i guess i will not feel irritated or annoyed or digusted when people address me as xiaxue again. cause she's real, real by telling people how to use photoshop on top of admitting she's using it. and mumbling to herself 'Omg, i cant believe im telling you this. afterwards everyone's pictures will be so nice appears in their blog and i will be out of job.' and real by showing her face without make ups, i believe these encourages a lot of girls who's not satisfied with their physical looks. and many stuffs. yea. i find rich too.........

2009-04-26T14:34:00.000+08:00

I am not sure how long will this last. I am really confused. Now you are back to the one like how you used to be. Is this love, baby? 一切又变得跟以前一样我需要见到你一切才会不一样 p/s: I will wait for you to change, for me. I believe that day will come, doesn't matter how long.

2009-04-24T13:22:00.000+08:00

我了解一个人突然离开为自己的梦想而奋斗的地方有多么难过因为只要我想起来心里也会也难过我喜欢看一个男人认真的样子工作的时候就是工作上课的时候就是上课吃饭的时候就是要对着饭碗一丝不苟生怕别人抢走他的食物我爱的就是这种男人... 很美丽我更喜欢想象你你拿筷子的样子因为我拿筷子很不标准我也喜欢回忆你用筷子帮我盛面条的样子我很想你几时才能见到你 p/s: 幸福的距离

2009-04-23T11:48:00.001+08:00

射手座：All you can kiss！热情如火的射手座，接起吻来也是热情洋溢，充满了爆发力。射手的人行事光明磊落，不喜欢偷偷摸摸，接吻这种代表爱意的行为，在射手来说根本不必躲躲藏藏。如果他爱你，如果他想吻你，那么不管ANY TIME或ANY PLACE，他都会毫不犹豫的送上一吻，对你表达他的深深爱意。如果你无法接受这么随兴的方式，或是因怕羞而一把推开他，虽然他不怕挫折且有再接再厉的精神，但几次之后，他可是会恼羞成怒的喔! 最喜欢的接吻地点：任何地点，只要感觉来了就马上行动 HAHAHAHA THIS IS SO FUNNY. VERY TRUE!

2009-04-23T08:39:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL IS SO DAMN SUPER DUPER FUN. I MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE. TO LIVE WITHOUT MY BESTY MARCUS LEONG! HAHAHA K LA K LA. CLASSMATES ARE NICE, HOPE I DONT SAY THIS BECAUSE IT'S EARLY. HEHE. WENT TO MEET BESTY ON MONDAY AS WELL AS YTD! UPDATED OUR POLY LIFE TO EACH OTHER, SEEMS THAT MINE IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN HIS! WOOHOOO! YTD WAS ONLY THE THIRD DAY! BUT WE CELEBRATED HAFIZ 20TH BIRTHDAY! HAHA. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAFIZ!

2009-04-21T12:53:00.000+08:00

Im thinking back about the first day we met. we were in the lift in Mkal, was going up to the cinema. you looked at me asking what age was i. I answered you and gave a very disppointed look when you shook your head and said im young. I thought you were like a joke, judging people, always thinks that you were good at everything. that was the first impression you gave me. i know you din have a good impression of me too cus i was late for half an hour on that day, our first date. I didnt expect the footballer I first knew to be my future boyfriend. you were such a playboy, yea that's what I thought again. I really really din know, we could have come this far. you came to sg, to visit me. that's sweet i can say. making the people around me to envy me wasnt my aim, i dont think that way, didnt at all. I would choose not to know so much about you, so i dont have to love you so much. we could been just playing with each other. now, you are dragging me into deep shit, everyday thinking about what you are doing all sorts of shits. you stole my heart away. baby what's our problem these days? I know we have lack of time to talk after my sch have started. if i have a choice, i want to talk to you every minute. i know baby you will never blame me and you actually scold me when i dont pay attention in class. i know you want the best for me. you said im childish to think that you are leaving me if we din get to talk to each other for a day. im sorry to think that way, it's because you gave me so much unsecure feelings. why did you treat me so coldly last night, i believe you did on purpose. you want me to leave you, and you wanted me to open my mouth instead of you, but i wont compromise, i will never do that. i told you i was really sad, you told me you were too. cus you miss me yet cant get to see me and dont have money to raise me. i was really touched. i cried like a mad woman. cus you dont ever say out the thoughts in your mind. i really dont mind baby i really dont. i wont lie to you again, never ever. im going home now, to wait for your return.

2009-04-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

你知道吗爱你并不容易好多话不说出去就是怕你负担不起一路上有你苦一点也愿意就算是为了分离与我相遇我的爱早已超出你预期

2009-04-17T20:34:00.001+08:00

he's the man i always thought who is nice but actually he's not hahaha

i miss eating ice cream with footballer

with lynette

TOD'S bracelet

okay! town to meet lynette soh ytd before i went to work. we got plenty to update each other. things happened. not only her hair style changed, the way she talks has show plenty of ripeness than the past. came home baby's angry. im sorry. its because i lied too many times till he give up to trust me):

woke up by lindarling's call this morning. she skipped sch again! im really unhappy when she doesnt attends sch on time, serious. nvr change. went to meet her at yishun to collect her student pass. chanced upon caifang and ziqun were doing boy's town donation there. haha. laughed, donated. took the same bus down to town, collected my pay. waited besty to reach after his np orientation. im really patient since i have a boyf-.-. ate kfc alone and chanced upon lynette soh! haha. we are fated! catch ups with besty as well though its been recent since we met. watched Fast and Furious 4 with him. nice movie. we kept imitate how the guys talked in the show. darn stupid. okay, now my turn to wait for my baby to return home. so he would forget what happened ytd... sigh

2009-04-16T11:58:00.000+08:00

E&X

alicia lynette nana kim ethel

me&ethel with kim's smile and breast

lyn nana kim

farewell to alicia.

sweet smile :D

kim is doing sth not right. hahaha

kim and ethel.

2009-04-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

吵架的时候想如果我们天天都能好好的 不吵架了天天在想是不是已经没有话可讲 我好麻烦自己都不懂心里的想法 我要的到底是什么？ 海的那一边 乌云一整片 我很想为了你快乐一点 可是亲爱的你怎么不在身边

2009-04-11T16:52:00.000+08:00

我只希望你能明白.. 我不想后悔... 我的心你总是不能明白我总是忍着让着在乎着.怕惹你生气怕你上火. 这是爱还是习惯？我总是想象以后的我们.环游世界的我们这一天会来吗？ I will bear with all the consequences which I need to take even being with you sends me to heaven.

2009-04-10T16:03:00.000+08:00

Im a duper fat shit!

I want to slim down!